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Mary Winkler Gets Supervised Visits With Her Children

So I read on Fox News that Mary Winkler will be getting supervised visits with her children. You may not recall, but Mary Winkler was the “wife” who shot her minister husband IN THE BACK, let him bleed to death for 20 minutes while these children were IN THE HOUSE (emphasis mine).

A psychologist at Winkler’s trial testified she suffers from post-traumatic stress syndrome because of domestic abuse coupled with emotional damage from the death of a favored sister years earlier.

Winkler told the judge she wants to be reunited with her daughters to help them deal with the emotional trauma of their father’s death. The children are in the temporary custody of Matthew Winkler’s parents who want to adopt them over their mother’s objections.

That is just rich. She wants to help them deal with the emotional trauma of their father’s death?!?!?! How the hell is *that* conversation going to start out? “Kids, I know I shot your father in the back and killed him while you were in the house, but let’s get over it and move on. Care for some more spaghetti?” WTF? They should remain in the custody of Matthew Winkler’s parents who have every friggin’ right to be upset about this scenario. The children have only seen her a couple of times since she murdered her husband (who, of course is being accused of abusing her even though he now has no ability to defend himself and she never filed any kind of report while he was living).

Keith Ablow, a forensic psychiatrist, told the judge that Winkler’s mental condition is still unstable though she has undergone counseling since her conviction and is taking medication.

“I have no confidence that we know where Mrs. Winkler is clinically today, let alone six weeks from now or six years from now,” said Ablow, who has a syndicated TV show bearing his name.

I’m sure this is the reason for “supervised visits” but supervised visits, if they are perceived to go well will move to the next level, and so on. How can this be in the best interests of these children? Please, can someone explain that to me???

Mary Winkler said “”We can begin healing together and let God guide us.” I would not be surprised if some idiotic judge awards this woman full custody of these kids. GOD HELP THEM if it happens. They are going to need all the help they can get.

“The Hidden War” (Not So Hidden!)

My man is now published!

Please check out his published column over at KFAB’s website (not because I told you to, but because it is a must read and it is GOOD!!!)!

Update: ptg is at it again! But really, Scott, listen to him…he knows what he is talking about…you need “linkability!!!”

Wisdom from a 10-Year-Old Boy

My son sees this headline:

Man Dies After Armless Man Headbutts Him During Fight

After he laughs a minute he wittingly says: “Wow…now *that’s* a way to use your head!”

I almost spit my Coke across the room! Can’t get much funnier than that!

A Memo from the Desk of God to Ernie Chambers

To: Senator Ernie Chambers-NE

From: The Desk of God

Subj: Thou hast sued Me

Ernie Chambers, Senator from Nebraska, it has been brought to My attention that thou hast sued me. Why hast thou forsaken Me?

Thou accuseth Me…

…“of making and continuing to make terroristic threats of grave harm to innumerable persons, including constituents of Plaintiff who Plaintiff has the duty to represent.”

Thou hast stated I…

…caused, “fearsome floods, egregious earthquakes, horrendous hurricanes, terrifying tornadoes, pestilential plagues, ferocious famines, devastating droughts, genocidal wars, birth defects, and the like.”

I recalleth the “terrifying tornado” of 1975, and how I spared thou from death. Doest thou have selective memory, Senator Ernie Chambers?

Thou hast also stated I…

…caused, “calamitous catastrophes resulting in the wide-spread death, destruction and terrorization of millions upon millions of the Earth’s inhabitants including innocent babes, infants, children, the aged and infirm without mercy or distinction.”

Senator Chambers, thou hast stated that I did not respond to multiple requests of contact and that I did not respond to your call of “Come out, come out, wherever you are.” Senator Chambers, reaching me is possible just by folding your hands in prayer. How soon thou forgets the numerous prayers sent up to Me regarding the elimination of term limits. That was thou, was it not?

Lastly, thou hast stated the Lord your God…

…“has manifested neither compassion nor remorse, proclaiming that Defendant “will laugh” when calamity comes.

Senator Chambers, thou hast uttered a partial truth in your statement. I will, indeed, “laugh” when your term limit commeth to an end.

Ten Things That Make Me Happy….

Chris was tagged and he was SO NICE to not tag anyone specifically….so I can’t help but respond to his question “So….what makes you happy? Here’s my ten….

1. My hubby! There is no one in life I’d rather be side-by-side with, sharing everything!

2. My children. Having a boy and a girl have been such an adventure. Seeing life through the eyes of a child with cartoon glasses on is always the best. They are so innocent, but they are learning at a rate I can’t even imagine anymore!

3. The smallest moments of life. How to describe this is a challenge! I’ll describe it this way….on our vacation in the Black Hills this summer, there was one of these moments. I was sitting on a horse watching my husband and kids ride their horses in front of me. We were stopped, waiting for my son’s horse to quit eating grass (again!). Just then, I looked up and could see the sky poking out between the trees. Some clouds were moving in and I heard this noise…it was the wind! It was sooo quiet in those mountains, away from everything, that I could hear the wind coming before it arrived!!!!! It was one of those “close to heaven” moments that I think back to whenever the stress or disappoint of the moment starts to overwhelm. THAT is what I mean by the smallest moments of life. It’s also my kids’ smiles, even petting one of our dogs. It makes me think how real life is, and what a gift it truly is to be a part of it!

4. Traveling. I want to do more! My number one place to go outside the US? Australia! But I want to see all 50 states in my lifetime.

5. Seeing movies in the theater. Nothing like popcorn and a new release. Not to say I want to watch *all* of the movies that come out, but I love a good flick, the atmosphere, and the popcorn!

6. Cooking. I enjoy making up new stuff, putting together new ingredients. I also like to can veggies from the garden. That way I can cook with fresh food all winter! I do admit, though, I’ve been looking at cooking more as a chore lately (don’t ask me why), but I think it’s because I’ve been working later hours at work due to how busy it has been and I don’t have time to unwind when I get home. But cooking for the family is fun - cooking for others is also great fun!

7. DVR. One of the GREATEST inventions EVAH!!!

8. Moving things from “to do” to “done.” Oh, and I haven’t been doing as much of this as I’d like lately! GAH!

9. Justice being served. I am admittedly stealing Chris’s number 10. I like seeing justice served. There’s a consequence to every action taken - whether that consequence be good or bad. I love seeing good things happen to good people and equally, if someone has done something terrible, having it come bite them in the butt is simply justified.

10. Learning. I really do like learning new things. I’m inundated at work with learning new stuff, and haven’t been appreciating it much until I went back to school in August. I’ve rediscovered how fun it can be to interact with other people on topics that are compelling. I also crave that instant feedback and am getting good grades so far. I think it’s a boost to my self-esteem, which is something I can use at times.

Anyway, that’s my ten. …and I’ll ask you the Chris question: “What makes you happy?”

September 11, 2001

Following is the complete version of a post I put up regarding September 11, 2001. It was a post I put up two years ago, on the anniversary of 9/11. Much has changed since that post was up, but much has remained the same.

My son is now 10 and my daughter is 6. We are still fighting the war on terror, but continue to fight a bigger war at home…those who would much rather we withdraw than ensure we have the situation under control. The MSM, Hollywood idiots, and the Dems who voted for the war but will now tell you they were fooled….all of these people are bound and determined to increase the blood loss in the WOT. How soon they forget the thousands of lives lost that day, including A. Todd Rancke!! How soon they dismiss the hundreds of reports of good coming from Iraq, Afghanistan. Will they report THAT? Will Hollywood write a movie about the thousands of Iraqi children receiving education? Hell no, they single-mindedly would rather destroy our military’s image along with the pride of each and every soldier out there…and for what? Their almighty wallets. Their fucking American Express Cards. Their drug habits. Their $3000 purses and their attorneys to combat the nude photo leaks to the tabloids. The politicians know an election is coming and will do everything in their power to get as far away from the war as possible, even forgetting what platform they may have been voted into office on. I’m sick of the bullshit. Do people realize that if we pull out of Iraq the terrorists have won? Do they realize that we may be “ending” one war, but inviting yet another in our own back yard? Does it take another few tumbling buildings to remind them what happened six years ago?

I remember the day as if it were yesterday. I asked my son if they talked about September 11 in school today. He said they hadn’t; I told him to ask his teacher to talk about it tomorrow. This is not something that should be shoved into a corner, put in a box and forgotten. We have to remember what happened that day, we need to honor not only those who lost their lives in the WTC, Pentagon and Shanksville, we need to honor and support the soldiers who go to battle for our freedom every day.

What were you doing and thinking on that fateful day six years ago? What will you do today? What will you be doing six years from now?

September 11, 2005

As anyone would probably tell you, September 11, 2001 started out as any other day for me. It was a Tuesday and just two days after my son’s fourth birthday. My daughter, born on May 1, 2001, was only slightly over 4 months old, and fussing for her morning bottle. Working nights, I was always tired, but woke up like any other day to get the day rolling. My routine in those days was to get my daughter’s bottle ready first, then go to her room and change her diaper, then settle down to feed her while I watched the morning news on Fox. At the push of a button, that day was no longer “routine” or “ordinary.”

Timing seemed to be everything. At the point I had turned on the news, they weren’t showing images of the planes, but just the explosions. I immediately got a feeling of extreme doom in my heart. My first thought? We were being attacked by missiles or something similar. My second was of complete distress…what kind of world will my kids grow up in if we are, indeed, being invaded? About that time, my husband burst through the front door and all I could muster was “What the HELL is happening?!?!?!?” …a moment etched in both of our minds forever.

As the day unfolded, there were many tears shed and as many moments of sheer anger. And grief. I had to go find the pictures of the World Trade Center - I felt so fortunate that I had a chance to see those amazing buildings during a trip to New York. I felt that I had to look at them just to let the whole idea that they were gone sink into my heart and my head.

Before I knew it, the time had come for me to go to work. It was so hard to peel away from my family, and from the news, but I thought that work could bring just a bit of “normalcy” to my day. Of course, I was wrong.

Getting to work was a challenge. We shared an office building with a local radio station and the parking lot, as well as the roads in, were clogged with cars. People were donating money to aid the victims and their survivors. I had *no* issue with being late that day because of this. Once I got into the office, you could feel the distinct change in atmosphere. A place normally abuzz as hundreds of employees talk with customers on the phone, an eerie quiet was in the air. We barely were getting phone calls, which makes complete sense. Those that did call in felt guilty, and said as much. Then there were those who called in because they just needed to talk with someone. Those were the hard calls, because America’s people were grieving whether the knew anyone affected by the events at the WTC, the Pentagon, or in Shanksville. A wonderful lady who reported to me was at work, even though a very close cousin of hers was missing, working in the Pentagon. She asked me if it would be okay if she kept her cell phone on, which is usually not something we allowed on the production floor. Of course I told her okay, but also encouraged her to be home with her family. She came to work, she said, because she had worried all day and wanted something to take her mind off of it. I cried for her. I didn’t know what else to do but offer her support and prayers. Finally a moment of sheer joy hit our production floor when she got that cell phone call. Her cousin, while seriously injured, was found and okay. It didn’t matter if a customer was on the phone, the whole room burst out in cheers, clapping and tears.

We were all still focused on the news. Everyone had the Internet up, checking on the news. We made sure the break room had a television on. I had been very used to eating at my desk over lunch and taking breaks at my desk, but decided in those days to eat and break in the break room. I remember the speeches by GWB and how everyone, no matter their political affiliation or background, was inspired and touched by Bush’s words, and more importantly, his actions.


In the days that followed, when there was no air traffic, I tended to get spooked out. Late at night, for about an hour, I was the only person in the building I worked in. It was so quiet, you could hear every noise, every rattle, every creak. And a few nights, you could hear the jets taking off from Offutt AFB (we were in the midst of their flight path). Imagine yourself, already spooked, sitting alone in a huge building late at night, knowing planes aren’t supposed to be flying. At that most panicky moment, that’s when the large jet managed to zoom past the building. The first night that happened, I swear I was under my cubicle, thinking I was about to die. Then when I ran and looked out the window, I did the whole “DUH” thing (slap on forehead included), but proceeded to pack up my stuff and got the hell out of there. My heart was still racing - even when I pulled into my driveway. That’s when I realized, that for such a “distant” attack, it had even changed *my* life forever.

I remember the day that Bush declared we were at war with Afghanistan. I remember thinking “Hell, yeah….those bastards deserve everything we’ve got!” …and got it, they did. I remember watching the footage each night and day, an eerie green-hued Steve Harrigan etched into my mind. I would stay up until 3-4am, just to watch the footage, only to start it up the next day. I remember my 4-year-old son asking if Osama bin Laden was going to kill us. My son, I will say, is brilliant. At the age of four, he was asking me about the news, and the mastermind behind a major terrorist plot - but at the same time, my very sensitive son had fear on his face - he was genuinely concerned. I explained to him that the army guys were “beating him up” and he’d never be able to hurt us. From that day on, “Army guys” were my son’s heroes.


Each year, there have been vigils and memorial services to remember those lost in the 9/11 attacks. They have served, for me, as a reminder of what we have lost.


They have also served to keep my beliefs and ideals firmly in place, especially when I watch my young children participate in these services. This is a world they are inheriting - not by anything they have done, but at the hands of extremists who hate our country.

There was a unity for some time in this country. Flags flying, people crossing the aisle to say “let’s work together and support this cause.” We don’t see that anymore - at least on the outside (i.e. the media). We have the Michael Moores and Cindy Sheehans of the world who will tell you that GWB and anyone who believes in his leadership is putting soldiers in harms way for no reason. However, most “every day Americans” have faith that the Bush Administration is leading us in the right direction in the War on Terror. President Bush has never said that road would be easy, and he never said the war would be swift, no matter where the war took us. He did let us know these efforts will preserve our freedoms and that soldiers would die for this cause. That’s what war is - freedom has a price. 3000+ Americans paid a heavy price on 9/11 and I believe in assuring their deaths were not in vain.

Blue Star Chronicles linked with In Memory of Lt Michael Warchola
This Goes to 11 linked with My 9/11 Memory
Merri Your Wishes Might Come True!!!

Oh please, please, please, let the sources be right. OH PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

OMAHA, Neb. — Sources tell two Nebraska newspapers that Sen. Chuck Hagel does not intend to run for president or re-election to the Senate next year.

The Republican has scheduled a news conference Monday to tell his political future.

It would be gift enough to not have him throw his hat in the ring for president, but to not run for re-election to the Senate? That would be a two-for-one special!!!!!!

UPDATE: Oh my!!! It has most CERTAINLY come true. Merri, there IS a Santa Claus!

Real Life & Reality on my DVR

As you can tell, real life has obviously taken over again! I haven’t posted since August 22 because so much has been going on!

1) The kids are back in school. It is amazing to me how hard one has to work just to get the kids ready! School clothes, supplies, meet the teacher, kids saying “Only 1 day, 2 hours, 18 minutes and, 12 seconds until school starts” (multiplied by 5000 times!).

2) I am back in school! I started attending classes online last week. I needed to focus as much as possible since this old dog hasn’t been in college since the late 80s. I like learning online…fits my very hectic lifestyle. Interestingly enough, some portions of online classes are almost like blogging!

3) The garden! OH MY GAWD. I am amazed at how many tomatoes can actually come from one plant. The fact that I have 8 tomato plants all standing as tall as me (if not taller!) means I’ve been busy. I’ve canned hot sauce, salsa, spaghetti sauce, and tomatoes. I had to get extra canning jars! Believe it or not, some of the plants have blossoms on them! Crazy stuff. It should die down toward the end of September, I hope!

4) Husker football began…..52-10 this Saturday…WOOT!

5) I’m just enjoying real life so much, it is hard to sit down and spend time putting up a post about things that everyone has already blogged about. I’m getting just a bit cynical about blogging, if you couldn’t tell…I almost feel it’s a waste of time most days! I may end up closing up shop one of these days, but don’t know for sure. I think about looking for partners in crime, but even my hubby’s blogging somewhere else these days. No one (except my buddy Nancy) has the time or a desire to blog over at my little place…I’m just a tiny corner of the blogosphere, not anything special, really.


My DVR is going to be getting full very soon as the “Fall Lineup” of what I call “mindless” television is starting up. Why do I like this stuff? I do enough thinking in a day I like a way to escape! Here are the ones coming in September that I have the Tivo ready for:

Rachael Ray

She starts on September 10, 2007. I DO like her show as much as “30 Minute Meals.”

The Biggest Loser

I have watched this show every year. Given I have a few pounds of my own to lose I always hope it will get me more inspired. It will be interesting with a new host this year! They have a special on tomorrow, September 4, following up with some contestants to see if they kept the weight off. The season premieres on September 11.

Dancing With The Stars

Okay, so I’m somewhat skeptical about the show this year. I don’t know many of the “stars” and those I *do* know are not what I would call, um, dancers. Can you say Marie Osmond?!?!? I also think the makeup of the cast is somewhat worn. Didn’t we have a boxer last year? A beauty queen? …and there’s always a couple of “older” stars, too. Maybe the viewers should vote on who should be on? Or maybe not. I picture a show with Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, Brit-Brit and Kevin Federline or something like that. This one may be axed unless they can really “wow” me. It starts on September 24!

Extreme Makeover: Home Edition

By far, one of my favorites. I cry every time, but it’s a good cry! They start their new season on September 30.

So as you can see, between school, football, real life (including canning), reality television and a general apathy that anyone actually READS what I write, I’ll probably be posting more like once or twice a week, and only if I have anything I want to say. I appreciate those of you who may be reading me regularly (and please let me know if you do). And I even appreciate those of you Rachael Ray fans who bring my numbers up by looking at her wedding pictures (and the guys who are looking at her FHM spread!).

Take care and see you soon!